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i dont know whats wrong with me. all i feel is this need. and then loneliness. and then frustration.... then anger. then annoyance for being angry. i dont even know what im angry about. or why. i have no reason to be angry. or frustrated. or lonely. or sad. or needy.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!?????

i cant breathe. it feels like someones pushing my rib cage in on my lungs. my heart is having a fit.

i just want to curl up in a ball. i want to be alone. ironic. im lonely, yet i want to be alone. i want to get away. i dont know from what. i dont know what triggered this. i dont know how this started. i dont even know what THIS is.

all i know is i just want to cry. and i dont know why.